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2/8/25 — Exhausted

Everything is so hard. I'm tired, I'm overwhelmed. Obviously politics, but also personally; at the end of fall term, my boss offered me a few more hours a week, more money, great sick awesome! except I've put myself in the position of choosing between one really long workday on the weekend or splitting it to two and only having one day off. And then for winter term, I signed up for three classes (a full time course load) to see if I could handle it. And I'm handling it, technically, in that I'm not missing out on assignments and my grades look very good. But good god I'm so tired. Struggling to make time for anything else (Sorry to my roommate for not touching dishes in.....months). Struggling to find space for social engagements, yet I need them to live! Struggling to find time for art, feeling guilty any time I kick up a video game to relax. Cage of my own making.

The most annoying part of being so exhausted is I feel ready for a new chapter. A corner turn. A new me. But I'm stuck in this GOTdam hamster wheel built from my old bones.